I have these five amazing best friends, and the two I met (who introduced me to the other three), I met at a Get Scared concert. The friends I had been with ditched me for sleazy band guys, so I talked to the nearest strangers in the crowd. A year and a half later, I see these strangers about twice a month, and I would trust them with my life, and we’re all in love.

A few weeks ago, we were all hanging out, and we were driving around town with the music blaring. This song came on while we were listening to all our Get Scared songs, since we all love them to pieces, and we rolled down the windows and screamed it at the top of our lungs. I thought about it in terms of my story, and I realized that it really would be perfect for Ashley. There are all these people who hate her for absolutely no reason, and she’s got only a few people who do love her, but she cherishes them and it blocks out the people that hate her. The line, “If this is love, I don’t want to be loved” is what got me for her, thinking of her dip into popularity.

Thus, this is the song that I played on repeat while I was writing one of the last chapters, the one right after Ashley breaks up with Joey and has to present her painting to her art class. Everyone hates her again, and she’s too out of it to care at all. I feel like this song was just too perfect.

PS, every guy in this video is steamy. At the concert where I met the guy I like and my best friends, I got a picture with Nick, the singer.

Even if I look really dumb in that picture, it’s still Nick, and I’m still in love with him. We’re having babies someday. True fact.